Ok it's been decided (after not much thought) it's a boy plant and his name is Kermi (Like Kermit, but not).
There are two good things about moderate depression:
1. I sleep really well
2. I know how to get myself out of it, even if it takes awhile.
I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that I can't control other people and their decisions, only my own. So I focus on that and all the wonderful things I have and it makes it easier to bear the unknown.
There is a lot of unknown right now. It's hard, but getting easier.